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I'm thinking of changing my password.
I finished my geometry drawings... they look nice, all colored and everything. I drew a lightning sword, a steel talon, a candle, and a pair of eyes with a sword vertically between them. My theme was weaponry... of course a candle is a weapon, you fool!
I love Jess. I really exceedingly good whenever I was around her today. I mean, even more than I usually do. I just felt so... lol... good.
I strongly, strongly believe Ashley is lying about that. I really, really do.
I have nothing to look forward to tomorrow... other than maybe getting my cards.
There'll be a forensics meeting at lunch... exciting. I'll have a derm appointment at 4:10... but my dad's picking me up at school at 3:10 and taking me strait there because he has a therapy session for his arm. Exciting. What am I gonna do around school until 3:10? I wonder if...
*sigh* Yeah, tomorrow looks great... except not.
I got my class ring. It is, indeed, smaller than a masculine ring... but it doesn't look bad.
Something seemed up today... I don't know. Jess... emph. Call me before 10:00...please... I don't feel well...
I had a bad dream last night. A horrifying dream.
I was at a camp, like a summer, outdoors and campfire camp. I recognized being with the guys in a room that looked like Alex's basement, but we were talking about how Alex had died, twice... and each time he'd been replaced with a clone. The person that was Alex looked like him... except he was really small and his eyes seemed to glisten. His eyes were almost black.
I went with Scottie to one of the larger cabins, and he showed me that he had a trap door that led to a basement-like storage area. We went down there looking for something, and I immediately took place in a corner, while he started rummaging through a box in the corner to my right.
The only light we had was a flashlight. I started scanning the room and I saw... there were bodies littering the basement. One that was inside a broken crate... all I could see was a mangled face peering out through a hole in the side. There was another one hanging above the crate... it's head was twisted to the side. As I scanned over, there seemed to be one sitting in an adjacent room. Just sitting. It's eyes and mouth were wide open... he seemed to be staring into space. Behind him, it looked like another body was pinned to the wall by. Scanning further, there was one more body laying on the ground between me and the stairs to get back to the cabin.
I asked Scottie how long they'd been there. "I don't know," he said, "the one in the crate's always been here, but the others just collected over time."
Looking over at the one that seemed to be sitting, it struck me that it's eyes had seemed to move since I last looked at it. I started asking Scottie questions about it... but the body was answering my questions for him by simple, very slow shakes and nods of it's head.
"Scottie," I said, "That one moved it's eyes." It nodded it's head.
Seeing the nod, I proclaimed "It's not dead!" It slowly turned it's head from side to side. "It IS dead?" It nodded.
"I think it's looking at me, Scottie." It nodded again.
The body seemed to turn it's head to me. Horrified, I turned the flashlight to another part of the room, attempting to take my attention off of it. "What kind of dreams must they have," I said. Suddenly I heard a voice proclaim;
"Don't talk about my dreams. Let's talk about... Scottie's dreams." I turned the light towards where the dead man had been sitting, and it was gone. Slowly panning to Scottie, I saw the man, with ripped clothing and covered in blood and collected dust and dirt, standing directly behind Scottie.
I couldn't do anything in time. The man killed Scottie, and I dropped the flashlight in an attempt to run out. I must have tripped over the body or another crate (or maybe the same crate) on the way out, but I the man said something to me as I lay on the floor. I don't remember what it was.
Hun, you should wear your pirate shirt today. I'm going to.
I feel uneasy. I feel like I'm forgetting something... No, just... just like I'm missing something. I feel a great wanting inside. I want... what? I don't know what I want... but I want something. It hurts... why? I don't even know what I want... but...
I wish I could see Jess right now. God, it's been twenty five minutes. It's not that it's been a long time, though... it's just that I really feel strange... I want comfort, I guess.
On to the report for the day: I went to Jess's after school, as I said before. We were gonna watch Muppets from Space... but we didn't really get around to it.
We had an A.D. team meeting. Kristine dropped out of the team. *sigh*... she said she'd still get that Trenchcoat to me.
I didn't get the second batch of cards I ordered today either. Piss me off! I ordered them a day apart; I should get them a day apart! I better get them tomorrow or else I'm gonna have to complain some more but make no real difference.
I have a dermatologist appointment on Thursday... so I guess we couldn't hang out anyways. Sry. Not that you'd be that dissappointed... guess our next time to hang out is Friday.
I guess that's it. Maybe I'll go to bed early. Will I be able to sleep with this feeling? If only I could just... I don't know.
My mom just asked me if I'm going to see Haunted House when it comes out. HA! Yeah right! I really don't like Eddie Murphy's humor. The only reason that I would possibly see that movie is that the actor who played the Great Vinicci plays a ghost.
I'm done. I can't wait to see Jess...
Ya know... now that I think of it... I really have nothing to say.
I'm hanging with Jess tomorrow. I don't know if I already put that on here or not. I'll probably get the second batch of cards I ordered tomorrow, too. Too bad I'm not stopping by my house before rehearsal... I guess I'll just have to deal... (-D <--- happy smiley.
Oh, she arrived... she arrived all over the place. She was just... in a revolving door of arrival.
Today's going exactly as I expected... neither good nor bad. At least I got those cards I was expecting today...
I got a ride home from Kelley... and while I was waiting with Kalen, she told me something interesting about Allen... something interesting, but pathetic. I can hardly contain myself.
Mmm... today looks exciting... except not.
I'll go to school... talk to Jess... and then I'll come home and sit around until rehearsal. Then I'll go to rehearsal... talk to Jess... and then go home. Yeah, I know... don't you wish you were me.
I'm probably getting a ride from Kelley this week... and because she's always sporatically late, I don't know how much I'll get to talk to Jess before school starts. I wish she could just arrive at close to the same time every day, instead of being here at 7:10 one day and 7:30 the next.
I didn't take a shower today, either. I have a lot of time left after school. I'm debating whether I could just not take showers in the morning, and just before I go to bed. I don't know...
*sigh* it's only 6:50... so I don't want to sign off the computer yet... but I don't have anything else to say.
Ugh... whatever.
I have a strong, STRONG urge to call Jess right now. I don't know why... I don't have anything to say... I just want to tell her I love her.
Whatever. She'll read this. I love you Jess.
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