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Yeah.
I don't remember why I'm blogging.
Yeah.
Just played D&D for 8 hours or so. I didn't like this session as some of the other ones... but that's ok. Luckily, we can take about a month break now. It'll give me time to recuperate.
I love Jess. *sigh* I do. Jess, you can call me later if you want to talk or anything. :-).
Jess just left. We were in my room when my step dad came home from wherever he was. It doesn't really matter... we weren't doing anything... but I don't doubt that he suspects something.
We're playing tomorrow... and I've yet to draw up some of the stuff I need. Alex's mount... and the main bad guy, for example. Ah, well... I'll do it tomorrow when we're waiting for Alex. We're gonna have to call him after his church service gets out or something. He won't be home until after 10:00... so we won't be able to start right away. That's ok... we can just do some tame roleplaying while we wait for him. That's all.
I love Jess. I get that true sense when she sleeps in my arms...
My mom joined an online book club society... that is... another one, and I got a free set of Lord of the Rings books. I think I'm going to try reading them again. I don't know how far I'll get... they can get pretty monotonous sometimes.
I hate my sister. I mean... there are so many bad things about her that... grrr... she's, like, a waste of human being.
I hate it when she comes over to this house just so she can sign online and use the computer. Every time she opens it, she downloads five programs. That's right... FIVE programs! I have to uninstall them every time because not one of them is freakin' good for anything! And another thing... she doesn't appretiate anything I do for her!!!
*sigh* I'm done now. Jess and I hung out today. I was happy. Very happy. I love her. It's kind of relieving that we have disagreements occasionally. When we first started dating, we never had them. Yeah.
We're hanging out tomorrow too, for longer. We're renting Zoolander and Beyond Reanimator. Zoolander is hillarious... and I've wanted to see Beyond Reanimator since we saw a preview for it on Cabin Fever.
Bling.
I rescheduled my whole passport thing so that Jess and I could hang out tomorrow. I was hoping we could hang out today and I could do it tomorrow... but there was no way for us to hang out today. Now, however we can hang out tomorrow... hopefully...
I wrote up the whole thing with the new campaign and everything.
*sigh* I hurt. I just worked out, as I do every night... my arms hurt.
I had a dream about inventing new weapon types. There was this one giant dart... it had a really goofy name...
*yawn* I have an idea what to do with the next campaign... it should be interesting.
Stuff.
We started our new schedules today. Now I have Creative Drama, Driver's Ed, and Gym. Fun, I know. I finally have a class with Kristy in it (Driver's Ed). It makes me happy.
I ate dinner with Jess at a chinese place. It made me happier. We can't hang out on Thursday, though. It makes me sad.
I'll deal. We're making our own sign language. *sigh* we're such dorks.
My cat came into my room while I got up to go to the bathroom early this morning. She crawled back behind my dresser and wouldn't let me sleep because she was walking around on paper and plastic bags. Pissed me off.
At least I can see Jess in approximately 30 minutes.
Today was nice. I basically just played video games all day.
I talked to Jess on the phone too. At LAST, I actually got to have a talk with her about the Cabin Fever incident. I don't think she understands that I can't be ok with something I don't like until I've had and FINISHED a conversation on it. Usually it's that I want people to know WHY I think or act the way I do about something... or I just want to see that they care about my feelings... and even if, say, the topic changes, it'll continue to upset me. I mean... when the topic changes, I don't want to go back to it and seem like I'm hanging on the subject... but at the same time, I don't want to have to worry about it anymore. I usually don't know what to do.
Anyways, I talked with her about it... I can finally see that she actually cares that I was upset about it... instead of being indignant and accusing me of overreacting. I guess I can forget it now.
Anyways, the whole thing isn't worth getting upset over anymore. I love Jess... I shouldn't let something that happened months ago bother me... but I can't help it. I just can't. I guess it's a need for people to understand me that makes me upset.
And it's especially upsetting when it's Jess... because I know she understands me better than anyone else does.
*sigh* I have an hour to kill before I'll be tired.
I love you Jess.
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