Ugh 

Ugh

It's almost 2:00 A.M. I should go to bed.

After reading all those blogs... I realized how meaningless they can be... and then, shortly after, I realized how meaningFUL they can be.

However, I'm done with the sappiness. I know, without a doubt, that I love Jess, and that I love her for who she is, NOT for what I can get. I know she loves me. Maybe I will call her tomorrow night. I don't know. Let me know if you'd like me to call, babe. If I don't get an email or a comment here on the blog, I'll let you alone until Monday.

As I reread each blog in particular, I can remember everything. Not ONLY do I remember putting the blogs down... but I can remember the feelings... the frustration with Allen... the love for Jess... the masked hatred for myself, even. It's good that I can see it now... it means that it's passed.

*sigh* I wonder if I'll forget this blog... and, some time in the future, I'll say "hey, I'm gonna look over the blogs now," and come and read this. I wonder what will happen between now and then, that I don't know of now but I will when I read this. Meh... I guess I'll find out, eh? Come, future, come and get me... right after I get some sleep.