Mmm...
11:44... whew!
I guess I can eat supper now.
A while ago, I went back and read all my old internet convorsations with Jess. It was heartwarming, in a way... to look back at that time... it's amazing compared to the now. Some things came true... some things didn't come true...
Now I'm looking back at all my blogs from July.
Ok, I'm adding this comment almost an hour later, but that's ok. I was reading over the old blogs, Jess, and I realized that it was NOT the 22nd when we started officially dating... it was the 29th. It was THREE weeks between July 8th and when it was official, not two... that's why it seemed so long to me.
I look back, and I see how happy I was when Jess and I weren't nearly as physical. It almost makes me want to cry. I love Jess... I hope I haven't been taking her for granted. No, actually, I'm not worried about that. Our relationship isn't based off of physicality... but physicality is "loads" of fun. I love her... I love her so much. That's right. Even if this week WAS "the week..." It wouldn't matter. I look back at what I was saying... here's a passage:
"...At Justin's party, Jess and I were close, you know... she was in my arms. And, she fell asleep... and as she was sleeping in my arms, I got this whole sense of... well, peace. Of love... I mean... if Jess can fall asleep in my arms... there's got to be some deeper, more real sense of love and trust there. I remember feeling in awe... it was something I haven't felt in a long time... if I've ever felt it before at all. Jess makes me so happy... and she says that everything feels right when we're together. I don't remember feeling like this... not with Kristy or Tricia or anyone..."
I feel it. I can fall asleep with Jess in my arms. We can both sleep like that, in utter peace. I... I love Jess.
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